Where did you go?

Okay my heat with my mum has simmered and we are okay now.

One thing my mum told me was she doesn't feel the enthusiasm for Christmas anymore. Like its just any other day, except u have to buy presents. She thinks it might be because she is getting old but...........

Honestly I feel the same way. I mean like Having The Christmas Dinner with Michael was definitely a plus point, I really felt like it was Christmas because it is with someone you love. Not that I don't love my family but they don't seem to have that perk for it anymore...

Sigh I dont know how to explain it but it's sad. Last year's Christmas was a disaster, woke up on Christmas Eve and found myself crying in my sleep because my face was stained with tears. It was the first time I felt so miserable on Christmas.

Right now it just seems like a Holiday where you can give excuse not to go where with who and what.

I want that love for Christmas back....where did it go?